hummmm... extreme wordiness

People... Let me just tell you the last few days have been exhausting! I am emotionally tired, which means I am just mean, and I am physically tired. LAME. I haven't even done much. I finished my round of hormones 3 days ago, and there is still no action:D Meaning in 4 days, which I realize is a lot of time, I could be starting another round, I think Brian may be cowering in the corner if that is the case. The dang wallpaper in the bathroom refuses to budge, and when I do get it going well, I find that Leland has found something squeezable that he can open, and has covered himself, the carpet and anything near by in it (today for instance, conditioner all over him, toothpaste everywhere else) once that mess was cleaned up, I took him outside, it was either that or snap... so a walk was taken. We met a lovely lady named Patty in apartment 252 and she let us see her puppies, well dogs, they were cute, but not very friendly, HUGE let down for Leland! But lets back track a little....

Yesterday, was just a LONG day, I was tired, which means I am never at my nicest see teh above paragraph for the rest of the day, yes Leland did it yesterday and today, he is an overachiever, and his mother who well didn't pick the stuff up is an idiot! Anyway I digress... Leland likes to gag himself, yes I realize that is gross, but he does, and he has figured out that if he does it when he gets put down I will make sure he didn't actually puke and he usually has a 50/50 chance of being cute enough to get out of bed. Well yesterday I didn't check, because I wanted to have some sit on my bum time all alone, and when I went to get him up there was puke down two sides of the crib, what a considerate child, Mom must not have enough to do so I will hit up two spots instead of just one. Did I mention that puke is the WORST and bugs me more than anything? There was a nice spot, Rachael (an old roommate) invited me to hang out and that was great fun! But then Brian got home, and he likes to do this little thing called dumping when he can see I am stressed already, so what he does is he stresses me out, then keeps adding to it, like oh this happened at work, it wasn't a good thing, and this happened and this happened. And all these happenings are usually going to effect us in the not so great of ways. So that was last night, until 9pm, then the printer broke, which means I couldn't print Brian's resumes or letters of intent (some supervisor positions opened up, and he is putting in for all three of them, lets hope we see some action with at least one of them!) so we figured out that problem, then I went to peel wallpaper, and Brian sat on his bum and played WoW, now mind you normally I wouldn't mind, but I have been complaining to him about how I would love help with the bathroom.... oh well guess it didn't sink in, that is until Midnight when he came to bed and I was still working in the bathroom, I was kneeling on the counter and my knees kept popping which grosses him out, so he had me get down and he pulled like 3 little strips off. He went to bed, I kept working, after all I had sprayed the stuff I couldn't waste it, so around 12:30 I showered because I just felt gross, and when I hopped out of the shower Leland was up screaming.... HELLO! So I am feeling uber sick to my stomach and try to wake Brian to get help with Leland.... this never works... are you ready for a flashback....
So I had just done 20 hours of labor and then a c- section, my mom and sister Amy had headed home to Amy's home and left me and Brian and Leland at the hospital. Fast forward a few hours, when I wake up in so much pain I am having trouble breathing... Brian I scream... nothing, Brian again nothing, profanity, then again Brian, this time he stirs, gets up walks over to my bed side, asks me whats wrong says oh honey I am so sorry, then goes and lays back down... REALLY! Thats it, no help nothing... I try to focus a little, clear my head and realize hey I have a nurse button (which in my mind the MAN should have been the one thinking clearly, and should have gone to get help.....) I call the nurse and she sends in Keith, with morphine, 30 minutes later I am still trying to breath through the pain... Keith comes back, and realizes the medicine that was supposed to be on auto drip through the night never got turned on, and goes to get me his favorite cocktail (he was the anethsiologist, and I adored him...) he stuck it in my epidural line and I was resting comfortably after that. Needless to say I texted Amy at 5 praying she would be up, and she was, the angel brought chocolate milk and doughnuts, all because she loves me. Brian was dismissed from over night hospital duty, and Mom was called to the position. Now back to the present:D

So Leland and I were up till around 3 I have no clue why he wouldn't sleep or why I couldn't comfort him, but he finally fell back asleep around 3 and my throat hurt from singing to him, I think at one point edilwiess was on repeat, but I am not sure. Then Leland woke up at 7 am my response to that was here is a bottle you may enjoy it in your crib because Mommy needs a rest. So today has been long, I should probably go check on him as he has been coughing pretty hard and make sure that there is no puke. Jen you will be getting an email, because I tried to change my background on my own, this is NEVER a good thing, and agian I messed it up, I will send you the two finalists and you can pick which one gets put on!

One the up side, I have a great husband who told me he would get the empty boxes out tonight, and a cute cute kid... but you decide:D