Right....

Take a deep breath... hold it, hold it... hold it.. (allie is turning a little bluish) ok breath... again... take a deep breath... hold it hold it... at this point I am wondering how she got this job.. granted she is gentle ( I was told they really had to dig to get the ultra sound of a gallbladder.. ) so I will take what I get. I had a frustrating morning. I guess I am a generation X to the t I want to know my results right now today, not a moment later... but I have to wait till Thursday, I suppose its a dang good thing I am not in terrible pain, because my friends then I am a huge no good meanie! SO I went in for the ultra sound, it took 30 minutes, I was told by the doctor to plan an hour and a half visit.. so this left me scratching my head, but the fact that I got absolutely NO news today, makes me a little crazy, and it leaves me wondering what the rest of the week will hold... I go to the doctor 3 days out of the work week, which I think is pretty impressive really... add to that, the fact that we have ants (Yippee) and I have already sprayed for them... I killed a bunny tonight on the way home from a date with Brian, and my headache (which I tried to bring up in the first doctors appointment hoping to get new migraine medicine and he said, lets talk about that another time) and we have a mildly overwhelmed Allie... But with that said there is hope. Brian went out for some little contraption to maybe poison the ants we already have, and I will do a through cleaning of the computer and table area tomorrow. Not to mention I will get my room organize. I really stink at the whole house work thing!
Anywho on the plus side Brian and I got to go out. We went and saw monster vs aliens, it was ok, but it could have been so much funnier! Not as much for kids as for adults I would say. I got some good chuckles in. We used the tickets I bought for Annie and Adam for Christmas and lost. I found them in the move and since we got them the Ensign I figured it was ok to use them:D But we got a pretty sweet deal, cause we got to see it in 3 D which was fabulous! Although the movie I really want to see it UP it looks pretty dang hilarious! I straight up did the annoying laugh so loud everyone looks at you for one part of the preview!
Anyway this is just to let everyone know that we have no update... nothing new is moving here on the home front, but check back on Wednesday and Thursday and possibly we may have something new to talk about...

Update on me:D YAY

Still no period, going in on Wednesday, and Annie has armed me with some great questions, I have printed them out and I am going to ask them all no matter how stupid I feel... Yes I feel dumb asking questions about it even though we are going onto month 8 in April, and I feel like it is all my fault...

which brings me to my next point, for about 2 years I have been getting this pain in my side, which I assumed was just because I was gaining weight and my ribs were resting funny on the fat or an organ or something, so I never asked about it. But my girl friend Ashli pointed out that it could be my gallbladder so I went in and for some reason this doctor is so much easier to talk to! He is hilarious! I told him the fat thing and he said... "you must be Lutheran" I died laughing and said Nope I am Mormon... he paused and asked do they have a lot of guilt.. again I laughed pretty hard and Amy put it perfectly when she said we have the guilt of omission and commissions.. (did I say that right???) He speaks my sarcastic language which makes the appointment fun, even though he ordered lab work ( I am a hard stick) and poked and prodded. Over all I highly recommend Dr. Whittenburg, he is fantastic. Anywho back to the gallbladder, he is fairly certain that that is what it is, so we got me what he calls surgery ready, he updated my chart and made all the needed notes, but he isn't positive and told me he didn't want to get my hopes up, again it cracked me up! Anyway I have to laugh when I think about it because right now we are in a position where this wouldn't kill us financially, we set up an HSA through Costco, and still have almost 900$ in it, so what our insurance doesn't cover will be close to covered with the account, and I could schedule it and not wait for it to become an emergency, which means I could get my mom to come out, so I could have help while Brian is at work and school. I know Amy would be overly willing to help (hey ame I am snapping... where is my drink) but I don't want to add to her burdens, she carries a hefty load! Not that my mom doesn't but yeah... there is nothing like a mom when you are nervous! And my mom is just wonderfully fabulous! But wouldn't it just be my luck that I wouldn't have to have it out... and then two years from now when its the worst possible timing it has to come out... Anyway we shall see what becomes of all this on Monday, either way the doctors will be rich from my co-pays!

Side note both Brian and I were laying in bed I was doing some puzzles ( I love fillin's but I can't find the fill in only books, let me know if you find one:D) and I had the over head light on because I have yet to put up our bedside lights, and he talked talked talked for like an hour then looked at me and said hey babe I have to go to sleep, which cracked me up, I looked at him and said well then stop talking... and I proceeded to get the giggles for about 30 minutes... he cracks me up, that man can sleep anywhere under any light, but in bed it has to be dark... whatever:D

Camera????

So my camera went missing but I have some great pictures to post when I eventually find it! Oh and an adorable video of Leland and Brian... but just so you know that is why the posts are without pictures currently!

My new favorite thing

Is that Leland makes friends while driving... we will be at a stop light and he will start clapping and saying hi, and when I look back I can see the other driver that he has brought into his little world for a minute and they are always thrilled... I LOVE IT....

My little Man

is growing up so fast. I can't believe it!

Showers

Leland LOVES the water... all forms, the pool, lake, tub, shower, hose etc. He adores it, so recently I have been putting him in the shower alone, normally he showers with one of us.. but since he now asks for showers in the middle of the day, no one is really interested in going through that process again! Anywho as long as he has some ice a shower can last forever, and he gets very angry when you take him out before all the ice is gone. I was hanging laundry in my closet which is right outside the bathroom door, and he started screaming I thought he had fallen and really hurt himself.. But no, he had spilled his ice over the side of the tub and was SO angry about it.

Game

So, here's how it works: the first 3 people to leave a comment on this post will receive, at some point during the year a handmade gift from me. What it will be and when it will arrive is a total surprise! The catch is that you must participate as well. Before you leave your comment, write up a pay it forward post on your blog to keep the fun going (or copy and paste like I did). Then come back, let me know you're going to play and sit back and anticipate the arrival of your gift! Just the thought of receiving something in the mail that isn't a bill is delightful! Come and play!!

** It should be noted that I am not crafty, and I may enlist the help of others to make the above mentioned craft.:D

The Update

The Allie is overly sensitive right now, and easy frustrated and in general at the end of her rope, this promoted a pint eating type of day yesterday, and may include going to see a new doctor about some good drugs. She is fine, just take what she says these days with a grain of salt:D And know if she gets a little weepy while watching Lilo and Stitch that it is indeed a tear jerker and you shouldn't say otherwise..... I will keep you posted on when things start to look up... which could be this very weekend thanks to my sista:D I am very excited Ame!

We'd Like To Wait...

Really? Cause I don't want to. I have been waiting for 6 months... I have taken a round of hormones and now you are telling me you would like to wait and see. I don't want to wait, I want something to happen today. I don't want to hear your lame excuses and the phrase "let us do the worrying" is by far the dumbest thing I have ever heard. I have been aching, and cramping and grumpy for over three weeks, so what that leads me to believe is my body thinks that we are on a period even though we are not... and still they would like to wait.... so I guess then that we wait, or I find a new OB which how many of us enjoy finding a new one of those... I mean really... I get it, I took the depo for 6 months... which believe me I did a lot of research on it before I asked for it. I even asked him if I took it for a year, one glorious year of not having to remember a pill, statistically speaking would I be ok... his response was yes, the research all pointed to yes... and in fact I don't remember reading one study where after a treatment or two there was a cessation of the cycle. I had two treatments, I spotted through both of them yes for 6 months, let me tell you how pleasant that was.. and then now I have had nothing for 6 months, yeah I started them last March, and here we are, its March again... and my body is boycotting... thus making me grumpy, and angry and bitter... I will tell you something though, I have a new appreciation for those who suffer with infertility and have to go through their sisters having kids, and friends getting pregnant, I don't know how they do it, I guess its just cause they are pretty much amazing:D (just a side note I have not been told I am infertile, so I am not as stressed, however they keep referring to me as being on the shot for over a year, which makes me mad every time I talk to them how about under a year people) Apparently there are Depo support groups that meet, and I just may look into it, because maybe I will find someone who is going through the same thing as me, not someone who has been taking if for over two years (cause all the research says once you reach that point, you could probably stop taking it and still not get pregnant or have periods or any of that stuff)

So....

is it rude to cut off customer service when they are going on and on about what they can give you if you only choose to stay with them longer? I mean this guy was offering me some pretty good deals, but the problem is I already purchased a new Internet security, and for switching I get a whole year free, whereas with McAfee I only got $30, off. So in the middle of his offering speech I just cut him off and said I am sorry, but I waited for ten minutes to even get to talk to you, I told you I bought a new service and am no longer interested in your service, so can we just take care of that. I think I shocked him because there was nothing on the other end for a moment, and then he said yes please hold for a few minutes while I take care of it. I was certain he would never retrieve me from hold and I would have to call back, but he did, so while I had a hard time finding the number to call for them, and then waited forever to talk to him, he did indeed help me... so yeah... I guess that is a good on them.

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So I was worried a while back that if I had a little girl she wouldn't be a cute as Leland, I stand corrected. Thanks Hope:D These are fantastic!


This must also be why people mistake him for a little girl:D