Wednesday, March 4, 2009

We'd Like To Wait...

Really? Cause I don't want to. I have been waiting for 6 months... I have taken a round of hormones and now you are telling me you would like to wait and see. I don't want to wait, I want something to happen today. I don't want to hear your lame excuses and the phrase "let us do the worrying" is by far the dumbest thing I have ever heard. I have been aching, and cramping and grumpy for over three weeks, so what that leads me to believe is my body thinks that we are on a period even though we are not... and still they would like to wait.... so I guess then that we wait, or I find a new OB which how many of us enjoy finding a new one of those... I mean really... I get it, I took the depo for 6 months... which believe me I did a lot of research on it before I asked for it. I even asked him if I took it for a year, one glorious year of not having to remember a pill, statistically speaking would I be ok... his response was yes, the research all pointed to yes... and in fact I don't remember reading one study where after a treatment or two there was a cessation of the cycle. I had two treatments, I spotted through both of them yes for 6 months, let me tell you how pleasant that was.. and then now I have had nothing for 6 months, yeah I started them last March, and here we are, its March again... and my body is boycotting... thus making me grumpy, and angry and bitter... I will tell you something though, I have a new appreciation for those who suffer with infertility and have to go through their sisters having kids, and friends getting pregnant, I don't know how they do it, I guess its just cause they are pretty much amazing:D (just a side note I have not been told I am infertile, so I am not as stressed, however they keep referring to me as being on the shot for over a year, which makes me mad every time I talk to them how about under a year people) Apparently there are Depo support groups that meet, and I just may look into it, because maybe I will find someone who is going through the same thing as me, not someone who has been taking if for over two years (cause all the research says once you reach that point, you could probably stop taking it and still not get pregnant or have periods or any of that stuff)

4 comments:

Alison said...

Wow, this sounds more serious than I originally thought, Allie. We need to shop for shoes. :)

My verification word was "menal" which is really close to "mental" and you and I both know why we would find that funny when just thinking about ourselves individually AND that word. :D

Erin Lafleur said...

I still don't understand to this day why the FDA continues to keep the Depo shot on the market. All but one person I have met has had it end in heartache, frusteration and sometimes much worse. The one that didn't was only because the girl had special needs so they never wanted her to be able to have children or a period at all.

I am so sorry that you are going through this all Allie. Hopefully things work out realy soon.

Jen said...

Oh dear, Love you Allie! Hope you find a solution soon. So sorry you are having to deal with all this!

Em said...

That is kind of scary. you definately need to find a new OBGYN, you shouldn't have to feel this miserable. And on a side note, the Lord knows the best timing, you will be ok! At this very moment I am thinking one child would be optimal right now. =) Love you dearly!